BABY, I LOVE YOU. I’LL BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU THROUGH ALL THIS FOR AS LONG AS YOU LET ME. I’M YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON. I WANT MY EMBRACE TO BE THE ONE YOU SEEK WEN U NEED TO BE HELD. THE ONE TO WIPE UR TEARS AWAY. THE VOICE YOU NEED TO HEAR WEN EVERYTHING ELSE DOESN’T MAKE SENSE. I’LL BE UR LIGHT THAT SHINES. THE PATH YOU FOLLOW TO GET THROUGH TOUGH TIMES. I’M YOUR EVERYTHING JUS LIKE U ARE MINE. …don’t forget that. don’t push that away. I LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!!

shit!! usually, times like this makes it so easy for me to write. but for some reason, I cant do it. I dunno where to start, I dunno how to start or I don’t even know wut to talk about. I’m at a stump. wtf!!! anger is usually wut gets me writing a lot. or maybe that’s jus how it was in my past. yes!! I jus realized that wen I write now a days, its bcuz I’m in love. I write about being in love bcuz the feeling is true. I can only write the truth.

all my life, I’ve dreamed of meeting someone that would love me for who I am. someone that accepts every lil imperfection about me. to laugh with me and AT me, for that matter. never have I dreamed it would be someone I’ve known 5+ years ago. I’ve never been more open and honest with any of my past relationships than I am with this one. I am absolutely myself wen I am with her. every waking moment, I dedicate my entire being to her. she’s my soulmate…something I NEVER believed existed until she came back into my life. crazy as it may seem…I know she’s THE ONE! I’ll hang on to her for as long as she’ll let me. no matter wut happens between us, I’ve made a promise to myself that I will always be her friend and never let her down. only she has the power to make me wanna be a better person, inside and out.

my dearest nina,
ur my everything. my soulmate, my true love, my destiny, my best friend, my lover, my one, my only, my life, my world!! nothing but life itself will ever take that from me. u’ll forever have my heart.
love always, mei

so…my new beginning. our whole lives, we dream of finding “the one”. we learn to love and believe that we’re destined to be with a certain someone. as life goes on, we find someone to love and learn from it. we make mistakes that teach us many life lessons. i’ve fallen in and out of love many times and there’s nothing I regret. my past relationships, taught me many different ways to love. I’ve been hurt many times in more ways than one. i believe that everything I did in my past has made me the person I am today.

like many people … they always talk about starting a new chapter in life. for me, this time around, I decided to close the book and start fresh. all I’ll have from the past, is memories. memories that I will carry with me for the rest of the days of my life. crazy as it may seem, there’s nothing I ever regret. I am the person I am today because of my past experiences. I’ve become smarter and stronger because of what I went through and what we went through together. I’ve continuously learned from all my mistakes, I’ve learned to deal with hurt and pain. »> as my old book closes, I just wanna say thank u for being there to share with me some of my lifes greatest accomplishments. and sharing in some of my greatest adventures and experiences.

since the day I started to develop, there was only one voice that meant anything to me. since the day I was born, there was only one face I had pictured in my head. my first steps, led by only one pair of hands. all the tears I cried, wiped away by one persons love. all the days I fell down, comforted by one’s embrace. the unconditional love, only she can give to me. the only one that passed words of wisdom that meant anything. praise and glory shared with me even when I was a screw up. mistakes and bad choices I made forgiven by one heart. no matter what I chose to do or be, no matter what I’ve become, accepted by only one.

……
my hero, when I fell hard.
my strength, when I wasn’t strong enough.
my guiding star, to lead the way when I got lost.
my best friend, through it all.
my mommy, forever and ever!!!

I LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!